And so I ask...

I often wonder,
'how does one go about fully trusting another.
Trusting them enough, to give your all to them.
Trusting them enough, to give you HEART to them.'

The thought alone makes me nervous and never want to do it.
So the action is damn near impossible for me.
Don't get me wrong...
I want to find my "soul mate",
I want my own little family,
and I don't NEED the "Happily ever after".
I just wouldn't mind a "Happy after all".

I've found, over the years, that it is much easier,
AND less heartbreaking if I just keep to myself,
and not allow anyone to get the best of me.
I'm tired of the lies, the games...
I'm tired of these so-called "straight up guys".

Maybe i just let my insecurities get the best of me.
I've been hurt a good amount of times in the past.
It's hard to let go and pretend that it didn't happen.
Everytime i get to feeling this way,
I think about every other time i felt like this,
and remember the way it was...
I remember what was said,
how I felt,
then tell myself,
"Don't fall again."

And so I ask,
"How do you know?
How can you tell?
Does everyone have that special someone?"